Special treat.

Today, I was treated to a luxurious pedicure at the Whole Foods spa! It was a thoughtful gift from my dear friend Amy Claire, who upon hearing that I needed to paint my toenails but could no longer reach them, called me and said, "Stine, this is unacceptable.  We must get you a pedicure immediately so you don't scare the baby when she comes out."   {And it's true - believe me, you don't want to see the "before" pictures.}  Knowing that nail salons are one of the most toxic places you can go, Amy chose a natural option, which I also appreciated. 

So I waddled up the stairs inside the Whole Foods on Preston & Forest this morning at precisely 11am to the second floor spa.  It's one of the biggest stores in Dallas and only a few years old, but I'd never ventured up this mysterious winding staircase to see the zen-like world that lives above the store.  Apparently this is the only Whole Foods spa in the country, and the only one there is every going to be.  It was beautiful!  Vases of lucky bamboo, clean lines, soothing music.  Misty checked me in and ushered me into the quiet, dimly lit waiting room.  The only sounds?  The trickling of the water wall and the hiss of an electric tea kettle boiling me some hot water for a cup o' tea - Tazo Sweet Cinnamon Spice to be exact.

After a few moments of waiting with my eyes closed in a cozy chair, Nicole, the pedicurist, led me down a long hallway lined with massage rooms into the manicure/pedicure room.  And that is when I saw it - the comfiest chair I could possibly imagine, draped in hot towels. 

"Is that where I'm sitting?!" I asked.

"Yes!" Nicole answered.  "Please, sit and relax.  You can even nod off if you want to..."

There wasn't another soul in the room.  As I positioned myself in the "zero gravity" recliner chair and let it tilt me backwards, I actually said aloud, "Oh, heavenly day..." realizing this was the first time I'd been able to lay on my back in months, and without any pressure to my pelvis.  Nicole then offered me a heated neck wrap, heated blanket for my legs, and an eye pillow that smelled like lavender. 

This, my friends, was no "Fancy Nail."

The description of the pedicure on the Whole Foods website says, "Fully relax with a foot soak of pure essential oils and sea salt, an organic brown rice and kaolin clay scrub to stimulate circulation, and natural nail care including shaping, filing, cuticle treatment, foot massage, and buff or all-natural nail polish of your choice."

And that is exactly what it was.  With my eyes covered the entire time by the lightly-scented eye pillow, I drifted off for 50 minutes into a world without troubles or uncertainty or discomfort.  Best of all, there were no charlie horses.  She wrapped my legs in hot towels and massaged my calves with a mixture of sea salt and olive oil.  And I left with the most adorable purple toenails.  Now I'm ready to meet our little girl in style!

 

Happy things today.

  • Hot cups of Enfusia with coconut milk and stevia.  Sweet nectar of life.
  • A bright coral dress.
  • Getting closets organized - putting everything in its place.
  • Homemade thank-you notes.
  • All this spring beauty in my very own backyard...

baby wildflowers

coneflower starting to bloom

favorite spot

bramble of blackberries

ready to be picked

wild snowdrop

h a p p y   d a y  t o   y o u!

Breakfast in bed.

After we awoke Sunday morning, my husband declared, "Don't move. I'm making you breakfast in bed."   Then he scurried into the kitchen.  And this is what he brought me...

Farm eggs with raw gouda cheese

Ezekiel 4:9 toast with Full Quiver Farms cream cheese

Sliced local radishes with a dollop of hummus

Fruit cup of grapes, bananas, and strawberries with Brown Cow maple yogurt

Isn't it beautiful?  Seriously, who did I marry?

Reflections at 33 weeks.

  • I love being pregnant.  Given that I had so many fears about it for awhile, it comes as a pleasant surprise to me.  Granted, I still remember the first trimester when I was as sick as a DAWG, but there are so many wonderful things, too, like not needing an excuse to ask for a back rub. And the delight and expectation Steven and I have to meet our little girl.  And the crazy movements she does late at night that sometimes make me laugh out loud!  I swear sometimes it feels like she is snapping her fingers or sucking her thumb.
  • Some days it feels like my stomach is so huge it's going to explode, and other days like today, I don't even feel like I'm pregnant until I look down and see the big belly.
  • I desperately need to paint my toenails but can't reach them anymore. 
  • I found the bottom of my belly button.  And it was surprisingly clean!
  • I think I'm going to give birth to a jackrabbit.  Sometimes she kicks, and my belly literally jumps.  Apparently the little jackrabbit also doesn't like the heartbeat doppler at the birthing center.  As soon as we find her heartbeat, she starts moving around as if to say, "You can't catch me!"
  • All of these things make me even more excited to be a mother...I feel like I already know so much about her personality and we haven't even met!
  • No amount of monogramming bribery is going to make us reveal her name before she is born.  If you've already tried this tactic, you know who you are.
  • I can't wait to sleep on my back again.
  • I absolutely love the books Ina May's Guide to Childbirth and Natural Childbirth the Bradley Way.  Both have helped me feel really peaceful and positive about {Lord willing} having a natural birth experience.
  • I haven't done anything to the baby room yet.  I feel stalled for some reason.  Not sure what I'm waiting for!

A weekend of food and companionship.

What a beautiful evening in May.  As I sit on the front porch right now at 6:33pm, the distinct  smell of high spring is in the air - grass has been freshly cut, sprinklers are running in the neighbors' yards, mockingbirds are chirping wildly.  It's been one of those spring days that you wish would last forever - blue sky with a few scattered clouds, a slight breeze, and a warm sun that has yet to turn into the Texas scorcher.  Perfect for lying on a blanket and reading for hours, really.

This weekend has been pretty ideal, one that I want to document and remember.  It's not some monumentally big thing that happened, but a thousand little things that have whispered to me over and over - it's the people you've been given to walk through life with that matter.

On Friday night, Steven spontaneously asked me if I wanted to drive to Austin on Saturday so he could check out some new Texas farmers for the farm store.  It was cloudy and rainy in Dallas but the forecast in Austin was sunny and 85.  Yes, please.  It's been years since I've been to that wonderful laid-back city that is only 2.5 hours away.  It's honestly ridiculous that we don't go more often.  Our friends Tommy and Linda agreed to come along for the adventure so we groggily awoke at 6:30am on Saturday to get an early start and piled into our small VW Rabbit. 

I love road trips, however small.  The wildflowers across Texas were in full form as we flew down I-35 through small towns like Italy {yes Italy, TX - pronounced "it-ly"}, through Waco, and finally into the Austin area.

Austin has farmers markets in locations all over the city, all throughout the week, just teeming with local Texas goodies - freshly-picked produce, vibrant bouquets of flowers, homemade baked goods, handmade clothing, art, prepared foods.  It's like a healthy state fair every day of the week.  We had mapped out our plan for the day, and our first stop was Barton Creek Farmers Market.  It was still overcast, yet the sky was brightening...

We meandered through the rows of booths, stopping at this artisanal baker who wooed us with his beautifully-decorated breads.  We simply had to have a pain au chocolat.

Next we came to a stand where the farmer himself was unloading fat, round carrots from bins and packaging them into folded-over paper bags.  He gave us a sample to try...SNAP!  They were perfectly crispy and sweet, as fresh carrots should be.  We purchased a bag as well as four banana peppers.

After we'd finished our rounds at Barton Creek, we headed for our next stop, one of my very favorites in Austin: Kerbey Lane Café - the original location in a cozy house on Kerbey Lane. 

Just driving down that quiet street to the café conjures up all kinds of nostalgia - I was first introduced to this hippie 24-hour food joint way back in '98 or '99 when I lived in Houston and worked at Grassroots Music, and Amy, Jenni, Kierstin and I used to take weekend trips to visit Jenni's parents in Austin.  I've only been back a few times over the years but knew we had to stop by Kerbey Lane for a wonderful breakfast featuring their famous gingerbread pancakes. 

As we sat outside waiting for our table, the sun finally peeked through the canopy of trees above us, and the place was bustling with that carefree Saturday morning feeling - folks chatting, drinking coffee, reading the morning paper.  Tommy and Linda sat cross-legged on the ground and Steven and I on the steps.  We all four were so content, so peaceful, just simply enjoying the day, fresh surroundings, and being together.  I said aloud, "I just love Austin.  I could totally live here..."  Everyone agreed as we observed the friends and couples and families dressed casually around us, so different from the brunch crowd in Dallas that can be so upscale and snooty.  Yup, Austin is our kinda place.

Finally at our cozy table, we enjoyed a hearty breakfast of eggs, gingerbread pancakes, of course, and some delicious all-natural sausage.

Linda and Tommy

After brunch, we hopped in the car and headed to our next stop: The Downtown Austin Farmers Market.  Whoa!  It was just a bunch of tents in a parking lot, but what goods!  As Steven went off on his own to meet some new farmers, Tommy discovered Bona Dea Bread and came running over to Linda and I - "You guys have to try this scone and these cookies immediately!"   He opened his palm and offered us the crumbly heavenly-smelling goodness.  The cookies were - I'm not kidding - the best cookies I've ever had in my life.  Perfectly round and soft and falling apart and - bonus - gluten-free!  I could have eaten about a bazillion of them and started scheming how we could get our hands on them back in Dallas.

The farmers market started shutting down around 1pm so we headed down Lamar - because we had all the time in the world and because we could - for the 80,000-square-foot flagship Whole Foods to see if they had a special beer Tommy wanted.  Meanwhile, Linda and I marveled at the adorable organic cotton sundresses in the clothing section {they have an entire clothing and bedding section!}.  Once again, we remarked how much we love this city - even their Whole Foods manages to be unpretentious and laid-back, just like Austin's citizens.

Finally, we drove down S. Congress, past funky boutiques and unique homegrown restaurants, for our final stop of the day.  Steven had already told us about this new trend in Austin right now where people are opening specialty mini-restaurants in Airstream trailers all over the city.  Literally, you'll drive by a random parking lot where one of these adorably decorated trailers is parked, and there's a line all the way down the street.  There's one that only sells Vietnamese sandwiches, another crepes, another BBQ, another cupcakes, whatever.  They find their niche and do it well, and the food is good and fresh, not like funnel cakes from a carnival trailer. 

On S. Congress, there's an entire parking lot where all of these specialty trailers are parked in a row with picnic tables and umbrellas outside for casual seating...

If we'd had any room left in our stomachs, we probably would have eaten some BBQ, but instead we went down to the end of the row to hey cupcake!  How adorable is this?

We ordered the 24 Carrot, Snowcap, and Vanilla Dream in a to-go box to save for the ride home, although they only lasted 5 minutes in the car!

 

When we finally arrived home around 6:30pm, I kept saying to Steven as if I was a child returning from summer camp, "That was sooooo fun!  Seriously, that was SUCH a fun day."  We went to bed early and slept hard for 11 hours.

* * *

Fast-forward to today, Sunday morning, when a small group of us gathered at Josh & Terrica's for a time of worship, sharing, and prayer.  As Steven and I drove across town to their house, we were both completely quiet in the car.  "Hey babe, are you tired?" I asked. We had slept so much the night before, so I supposed it wasn't tiredness that was contributing to our lack of conversation.  "No, just mellow," he said.  It was exactly how I felt too - mellow and peaceful and just content.  Life could not be more up in the air right now, yet today, in this small precious moment, I just felt happy and relective and somehow excited.

The Garden CaféAt Josh and Terrica's, we grasped hot cups of tea and coffee and spent a few hours talking about how Christ is stirring our hearts right now in so many unique and beautiful ways.  Afterwards, we went to lunch with our dear friend Kyle at The Garden Café, a little hidden gem in a historic Dallas neighborhood.  It was, like I said at the beginning of this post, the most perfect spring weather, so we sat on the back patio which is literally in the middle of a garden where they grow lettuce, herbs, and other produce that they cook in the restaurant.  I had a chicken salad sandwich with fresh fruit and a few bites of whole wheat pancakes that actually smoked the ones from Kerbey Lane. 

But more importantly, we talked with Kyle, a true heart-friend, about what God is doing in our lives right now and also dreamt about the future.  We hold those dreams loosely in our palms but they are still there, and it's wonderful when you are in a safe friendship where they can be vocalized.

Earlier that morning, Terrica had shared a passage from the book A Thousand Days in Venice where the author explains that the root of the word "companion" comes from the words "com" meaning "fellow" and "panis" meaning "bread."  So a companion is a friend with whom you break bread. As I reflect on the current unpredictability of our lives and the simple joys of this weekend, I am reminded that life is nothing if not for companions with whom you can enjoy it.  Sometimes it's sharing your deepest hopes, dreams, and fears, and sometimes it's just pancakes on a Saturday morning.

What I'm learning right now...

Yes, this is it.  This is exactly it.

"Because of this, the very transparency that moves us close to others sharply separates us from some. Seeing what we see, we feel a distance from those conversations that are accumulations of what-I-did, and where-I've-been, and who-I-know and what-I-own.  The seeing that sees through these things makes it harder to enter into dialogue with those who live by things.  Transparency sees some modes of life crumbling to ashes before our very eyes.  We can no longer live for the dreams that some are moved by.  Silence, stillness, a dreaming within us calls us to a depth that cannot even be spoken of.

So our clarity loosens and disentangles us from some kinds of amusement and conversation.  As we become more aware of an inner reality, some kinds of business and occupation seem totally beside the point.  We no longer live, as we once did, for doing.  Now what we burn for is stillness.  We cultivate not the pleasures of going and coming and doing, but the peacefulness and abandonment of not-doing, which is an experience of the wonder of God.  It is the clarity that knows less is more, the realization that we need not carve our mark upon existence, so much as we need to let it carve its mark upon us."

~ from Clinging: the Experience of Prayer by Emilie Griffin (p. 50)

Lake Tahoe adventures.

In Lake Tahoe, you'll find cozy rental cabins nestled in piney woods on quaint streets carpeted with pine needles.  Amidst the pine needles are scattered pine cones larger than your forearm, mostly ignored by locals but considered treasures to tourists like us.  The landscape is so unique - from the middle of the lake outward: dark green water turns to emerald to turquoise to clear.  At the shoreline, sandy beaches are dotted with patches of snow into which trees have been stuck like candles on a birthday cake.  Pine-covered hills merge into snow-capped mountains, and then into the bluest sky.  Is this the same California where I've wiggled my toes in warm sand on the edge of the Pacific, watched surfers ride the waves at Manhattan Beach?  Or have we mistakenly landed in Canada, Switzerland, or France?

Our week there with Steven's family (his mom, dad, sister, and her husband) was everything a relaxing vacation should be: enjoying the lake, eating incredible home-cooked food, taking naps and hot baths in our jacuzzi tub, playing games like Monopoly and dominoes, and gazing out the window at Heavenly Mountain's deserted slopes - not really staring at anything in particular, just soaking in the scenery.

The first full day in Tahoe, we rented a speedboat and zipped freely around the lake - it was a Monday afternoon, ski season had just ended, and it seemed like the lake was completely ours...

My husband the boat captain

Mother & son

Around lunch time, we puttered carefully into Emerald Bay's shallow waters and turned off the boat engine.  Emerald Bay is the second most photographed location in the U.S., second to the Grand Canyon.   I can see why...it's absolutely sparkling.  In the middle of the bay sits the only island in Lake Tahoe - Fannette Island - which houses an enchanting castle at the very top that the owner used for tea parties.  It was so quiet there, so clear.  We sat in the boat in the sunshine and ate a delicious lunch of homemade chicken salad and Korean kimbap - mmm.

With our stomachs full, we began cruising again until we came upon stunning Camp Richardson.  Again, we were literally the only ones there...

Windblown but utterly happy, we returned to our hotel - Marriott's Timber Lodge - and had an amazing dinner to celebrate Steven's dad's 60th birthday.  This table is where we ate 17 consecutive home-cooked meals together over 7 days' time.  There is something special about sharing meals made together with your own hands, effort and love.

The next two days, it was suddenly snowing and in the 30s, and the fierce winds kept us inside happily playing games and eating snacks of Spicy Thai Kettle Chips, smoothies from the Vitamix, and Monster cookies.

When the snow subsided, the sky was strikingly clear again and we set off on a drive to explore the lake from a different perspective.  This time, we saw Emerald Bay from above, looking out over the calm waters where we'd enjoyed our picnic lunch in the boat a few days earlier.

This is their "band" shot

When we weren't on outdoor adventures, Steven and I caught up on Food Network.  We soon discovered that, yes, Giada is still annoying when she says "spageeeeti," and Barefoot Contessa is still adorable when she adds another pinch of sugar and asks with her mischievous grin, "How bad could THAT be?"  Steven read the first two books in the Hunger Games series, and I finished Donald Miller's newest book, A Million Miles in a Thousand Years and Elisabeth Elliot's These Strange Ashes.  We barely ever checked the time.

I'm so thankful we were able to spend time with family and savor these rare moments.   One day I'll tell our little girl about how we saw this beautiful world together when she was still happily nestled in my tummy, how it felt to breathe that fresh mountain air as I hiked to a vista and the clouds gently floated over the pines.